Wow, December 6th 2009. I want so desperatly for it to be 2010. I hav made so many mistakes this year...I even started to turn into someone that I knew I wasnt and that almost got me into alot of trouble, my grades even started dropping drastically and I knew I had to change immediatly. So I decided that after summer vacation, I would start a fresh at school and get my grades back up and I am so happy with that but...I dont feel new, I dont feel like the person that I am in truth. For months when I went through the 'stage' of attempting to be in with the popular people I was lying to everyone and mostly myself. I am still figuring myself out and next year I hope to be able to do some much needed soul searching, because, I dont know who I am properly. I dont know what I'm supposed to, Where I'm meant to be and What I'm here for, we were all put on this earth for a specific reason, be it saving someones life or just helping the enviroment, what ever it is we all need to find it and not let it go...It might not be where I am or where I feel most safe but I'll do what I have to and I have what it takes to make everything right again.
I dont know if I'll be online again until the New Year so, if not, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! Here's to a fresh start for everyone because 2009 has been tough on all of us.

Thanks For Everything
Jiggy
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